The Uncertainty Principle

The past couple of months I have really struggled to come up with anything to say. I thought about sticking to yoga itself, or how to start new habits, or finding some insight in current events. But none of it felt worthy enough to spend my time or yours on it. We're all fatigued and quite frankly, without being able to spend time with one another the way we used to, I have felt uninspired and uncertain of what comes next for me. And then it hit me:

“Who do I want to be during uncertainty?” I consider myself lucky in 2020-21 (well always but especially now) because I’ve had the privilege of living with extreme uncertainty before. When it began for me I, like so many others now, found myself in some odd state of shock, disbelief, and confusion. I got low to the ground so-to-speak and was in many ways isolated from the world. But once the emotional storm began to clear just enough to see the sky again, I came to this question: Who do I want to be during uncertainty? The answer for me was someone who still showed care and compassion for others... someone who would take the experience and really learn about myself and grow from it... someone who was unafraid to face myself... someone who would give the presence and love and understanding that I perceived being denied from me... someone who intimately knew what peace felt like and could share it with others. Sometimes that has looked like volunteering with an animal shelter and at other times giving a simple yoga class even if just to one person who needed it. At other points it’s been alone in nature, appreciating the sound of running water or the crisp air hitting my cheeks. And as of lately it’s also been answering this question: what healthy action can I take to show up for me, regardless of others opinion or self-judgement? So who do you want to be during uncertainty?